Mein neues Leben

As you noticed, i am again on blog break…this time its an intentional break and not because im pre occupied of my household chores plus mommy duties. I just have some personal issues… I have tried to write them  but when i sit down i just cant. Its hard to pull both happy and sad stories when you are not feeling ok . I just felt that its so fake blogging it, that i need to edit some informations so what the sense of blogging it anyway, thanks for all who sent me emails and showed concern. Just HIBERNATING…..

My friends used to ask me how many kids i wanted to have i always tell them, i want to have 5 kids. I really wanted to have a big family, being the only girl with 2 brothers for me it was pretty small. I always envy our neighbor, they have 5 kids and it was always funny especially during dinner or just simply watching TV. Of course its not always as smooth as i thought and was not easy for the parents, cause there were some conflicts among the children but all in all it was fun. After gaving birth to Lara, i suddenly changed my mind. Not because i had phobia of giving birth, the whole pregnancy was almost perfect and i enjoyed it, the end part is another story but it was not bad. Its just that i cant imagine how  my heart can love another child as much as i love her. I heard that when you have a second child your heart and your love doesnt divide but it grows. MIL and A even told me that its better for Lara to have a brother or sister because it will help her to develop social skills. I dont know, again i just  cant imagine loving another baby aside from my Lara, only time will tell.

Fall is my favorite season why?because for me its the most colorful season next to Spring…just my opinion. But most years it comes and go quickly that you dont get the chance to appreciate it. It was also in the same season when i arrived in DE, its been 3 years, and now we have a Lara, we are 3. Every Fall is very special, but this one is more special having our angel enjoying the colorful picturesque sorrounding. I just hope it will stay a little bit longer…..but winter is just around the corner already.

Today is A’s bday. I greeted him last night at exactly 12midnight and handed over my gift, i bought him pair of undies and pralines since i cant think of other gifts anymore.  I just thought of something useful and plus the fact i am now deprived of long window shoppings because of other boss  L who is very demanding =P so time is really limited. For me,today is a very special day for hubsky, since this is his first bday as PP. Im so proud of him, hes been the best and still the best PP to L. I wish him all the good things in life, good health. We love you and Happy birthday!!!

Born on Jan 13,2009, 21:48/ 3130gm/51cm

I Am Not Alone

Running errands and talking on the phone,
I am pleasantly reminded that I am not alone.
Little tiny hands a precious rounded knee
pushing and twisting that no one can see.
Oh sweet child kicking up your heels,
it is our little secret that only I can feel.
I look forward to your birth,
when I can kiss your skin,
but for now I will just smile,
As I feel you play within.

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My Weight:67.1 kgs

My Blood pressure:112/60

Anak: 38.1 cm

I cant believe that time flies really fast. 7mos ago i was suffering from nausea and pregnancy symptoms now its my last trimester. Today was a big check up for anak. Finally we learned that anak is a girl, what a nice bday gift for me. CTG or Cardiotokographie for 30mins was also conducted to observe her heartbeat, it was really funny and loud the whole time and esp when she kicks. Although it was uncomfortable for me but my husband and i enjoyed a lot hearing it. Look at my tummy in this picture, its really funny coz its not round. Its great to be pregnant!!!!! and oh by the way, notice the big weight jump =P, i think i should slow down….

My Weight:64.3 kgs

My Blood pressure:100/56

Anak:33 cm

I was so shocked about my weight, that was a really big jump. I think i ate a lot the past 4weeks or it is just the baby grew so big, now im worried again. No biggie thingy happened today at my check up. No sonogram whatsoever, just an interview  and pelvic exam. I was quite worried about my not sooo pink discharge and occasional cramps, thingking that its something else. But the doc told me its normal. I also felt the hardiness of my tummy more often and again he said its normal so theres nothing to worry about. What we are excited about is my next visit. Its gonna be big check again coz its gonna be my 7th month yoooohooo, im entering my last tri-mester. Time flies really fast. They will observe the heartbeat for 30mins and again ultrasound, cant wait to see anak again ,to say hi. A is excited too.

My Weight:60.4

My Blood pressure:97/56

Anak: 20.3 cm

My tummy is really big now, i have started wearing maternity pants. But its so strange that im not gaining so much weight though i started a bit heavy already before this pregnancy hmmm. Today is a big day for us. OB conducted a big check up and ultrasound for baby.  He checked the placenta,my uterus, the baby is lying normally so everything is normal and healthy. I also dont have infection. He also said that my normal BP is low but if dont feel dizzy i should not worry about it. I should continue taking my vitamins. Im taking different vitamins now, centrum materna similar to what i had the last time, just more vitamins for the growing baby. We saw the baby’s face on the ultrasound, i think she looks more like me =P