Mein neues Leben

As you noticed, i am again on blog break…this time its an intentional break and not because im pre occupied of my household chores plus mommy duties. I just have some personal issues… I have tried to write them  but when i sit down i just cant. Its hard to pull both happy and sad stories when you are not feeling ok . I just felt that its so fake blogging it, that i need to edit some informations so what the sense of blogging it anyway, thanks for all who sent me emails and showed concern. Just HIBERNATING…..

My friends used to ask me how many kids i wanted to have i always tell them, i want to have 5 kids. I really wanted to have a big family, being the only girl with 2 brothers for me it was pretty small. I always envy our neighbor, they have 5 kids and it was always funny especially during dinner or just simply watching TV. Of course its not always as smooth as i thought and was not easy for the parents, cause there were some conflicts among the children but all in all it was fun. After gaving birth to Lara, i suddenly changed my mind. Not because i had phobia of giving birth, the whole pregnancy was almost perfect and i enjoyed it, the end part is another story but it was not bad. Its just that i cant imagine how  my heart can love another child as much as i love her. I heard that when you have a second child your heart and your love doesnt divide but it grows. MIL and A even told me that its better for Lara to have a brother or sister because it will help her to develop social skills. I dont know, again i just  cant imagine loving another baby aside from my Lara, only time will tell.

Fall is my favorite season why?because for me its the most colorful season next to Spring…just my opinion. But most years it comes and go quickly that you dont get the chance to appreciate it. It was also in the same season when i arrived in DE, its been 3 years, and now we have a Lara, we are 3. Every Fall is very special, but this one is more special having our angel enjoying the colorful picturesque sorrounding. I just hope it will stay a little bit longer…..but winter is just around the corner already.

Today is A’s bday. I greeted him last night at exactly 12midnight and handed over my gift, i bought him pair of undies and pralines since i cant think of other gifts anymore.  I just thought of something useful and plus the fact i am now deprived of long window shoppings because of other boss  L who is very demanding =P so time is really limited. For me,today is a very special day for hubsky, since this is his first bday as PP. Im so proud of him, hes been the best and still the best PP to L. I wish him all the good things in life, good health. We love you and Happy birthday!!!

Here’s the reason why im feeling strange. Let’s continue to pray for this awesome A’s bday gift

im feeling weird. i dont know, i feel strange inside me that i cant explain.

It was a very successful bday celebration we had. Eventhough its just the two of us, it was more than complete to celebrate this very special moment. Im so happy that A appreciated the food i cooked for him, its a local way of celebrationg bday backhome. He also liked the gift i gave. Again Happy Happy birthday, im so blessed and more than happy to be with you on your bday, im wishing you all the best in life!!!….love you!!!

This is the 2nd part of what i will miss about our flat:

Döner shop -this is one of my faves snack, it may not be healthy but delicious. The Döner from our place so far is the most yummy ive ever taste compared to other shop we tried…haaay i will miss you really!!!

Asia imbiss - being an asian it is also nice when you can have authentic asian food in a snap, its a bit fatty but taste good also.

by the way, heres the update of our renovation. we have removed part of the wallpaper,at the moment the blue room is now white..will take a new pic when possble. The left room/side will be our living room,its used to be the bedroom and vice versa.

Yes, we are moving out from our rented flat to a rent “free”Apartment =P. I will miss a lot of things:

The Flat itself - Our living room where we eat dinner in front of our TV while watching “The Simpsons”, the Kitchen where i do a lot of experiments, we are bringing it with us though..i mean the cupboards and cabinets, appliances etc heheh, the Bedroom where we share our snors and dreams everynight, the Bathroom where we spend our freshest time together, the 2 boxrooms that served as our storage rooms with full of knick knacks.

The Neighborhood - quiet and friendly for such an Alien like me, esp the cute Kois across, they  are so colorful and overweight heheeh

Pizzapoint pizzeria -where we always order my favorite FishNFun flavored pizza yumm yumm esp the tuna,crab,squid toppings i love it.

Eis cafe- nearby for their delicious citron,engelsblau,melon flavored ice cream haaaay.

Edeka- a  bike away supermarket, whenever i need an emergency ingredients for my experiments.

Bus Station -3min walk from our house, so practical, although good for one way direction only.

Our Landlord- Whom we call lolo as A and me’s secret name for him hehehe, he is nice and funny at times.

Rhodos - 3min walk Greek resto when meat cravings attacks, they also have game place downstairs where you can pay billiards,darts,arcade and have cocktails and beer.

Kaufland, Mcdo,Aldi - are just few blocks away from our place.

Segmüller - a big furniture mall and Lidl on the side for drop bys

Cafe 61 - My first cafe tour when i arrived here in DE, they have good ham and cheese sandwich also.

Bauerlipp-  where we had sparagus and harvested strawberries last year with my friend Ana, the stawberryfield is just across the main street, and thats where i saw a jumbo strawberries compared to our strawberries backhome.

Our Cherry tree - i love our cherry tree, it reminds me of our local Aratiles tree back home last summer we had so much fun harvesting cherries, i will miss time watching and observing the changes of this tree accdg to the season.

Church and its bell -  The catholic church is just literally at the back of hour house. I hear the bell rings everyday at 8am and at 1030 every sunday, its served as our 3rd alam clock which is really effective other than 2clocks we have.

Salon - 5min walk where A always had his hairdone, and where i had my first and i guess my last because its so expensive, i cant really take it though theyre good and friendly.

haaay i dont know whatelse but im sure theres more…i will really miss this city =(

i was awake at 5am today, i cant sleep anymore. to avoid A from waking up, went to the living room and turned on my pc. Surfed the net and blog a bit. i dont know, i have so much in my brain, its so loud that i cant sleep. lately weve been very busy abt the “move out”, am i worried?perhaps, im always worried abt things. i miss my parents, i miss my younger brother….i really miss them, i dont want to call them. their voices will make it more painful, i cant look at their pictures…i just cant. i am homesick =( any cure???