Mein neues Leben

My friends used to ask me how many kids i wanted to have i always tell them, i want to have 5 kids. I really wanted to have a big family, being the only girl with 2 brothers for me it was pretty small. I always envy our neighbor, they have 5 kids and it was always funny especially during dinner or just simply watching TV. Of course its not always as smooth as i thought and was not easy for the parents, cause there were some conflicts among the children but all in all it was fun. After gaving birth to Lara, i suddenly changed my mind. Not because i had phobia of giving birth, the whole pregnancy was almost perfect and i enjoyed it, the end part is another story but it was not bad. Its just that i cant imagine how  my heart can love another child as much as i love her. I heard that when you have a second child your heart and your love doesnt divide but it grows. MIL and A even told me that its better for Lara to have a brother or sister because it will help her to develop social skills. I dont know, again i just  cant imagine loving another baby aside from my Lara, only time will tell.

Fall is my favorite season why?because for me its the most colorful season next to Spring…just my opinion. But most years it comes and go quickly that you dont get the chance to appreciate it. It was also in the same season when i arrived in DE, its been 3 years, and now we have a Lara, we are 3. Every Fall is very special, but this one is more special having our angel enjoying the colorful picturesque sorrounding. I just hope it will stay a little bit longer…..but winter is just around the corner already.