My 1 and only daughter
My friends used to ask me how many kids i wanted to have i always tell them, i want to have 5 kids. I really wanted to have a big family, being the only girl with 2 brothers for me it was pretty small. I always envy our neighbor, they have 5 kids and it was always funny especially during dinner or just simply watching TV. Of course its not always as smooth as i thought and was not easy for the parents, cause there were some conflicts among the children but all in all it was fun. After gaving birth to Lara, i suddenly changed my mind. Not because i had phobia of giving birth, the whole pregnancy was almost perfect and i enjoyed it, the end part is another story but it was not bad. Its just that i cant imagine how my heart can love another child as much as i love her. I heard that when you have a second child your heart and your love doesnt divide but it grows. MIL and A even told me that its better for Lara to have a brother or sister because it will help her to develop social skills. I dont know, again i just cant imagine loving another baby aside from my Lara, only time will tell.
